#2 any1 who celebrates

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he wants 2 make sure genya never stops believing

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can this be the last of it...who knows...

updated 2/17/2024 6:00 AM with last sections

A few tweets ago, I said doing things like headstands/assisted headstands or relaxation response after a stimulating experience like going thru social media/gaming. Left unchecked, U might not focus on theNews or something. The onus of stopping & next step is on u. Be mindful.-

- in “my situation,”…well…how do you feel after blogging something, after talking 2 some1, during a party, after a play ur in with others? If nothing, it’s not the roll out of bed feeling, when you wake up.-

-a constant eventful life can B aProblem affecting sleep, or u get used 2 it in normal situations as w/celebrities. U can work out 2 shake it off, or meditate-but if ur on tranquilizers, it makes it hard 2 move. Or If the "devil" magically obstructs ur breathing, u can’t meditate.-

-Ive embarked on pessimists route 2 receiving fruits of optimism. In my life, I know Im naked in more ways than 1. Its some1s version of “what a guy,” but being that guy, I wonder, doesn’t any1 care enough 2 stop it-its not acceptance, but assuming worst, leaves no surprises.-

-Id prefer if others were themselves in whatever they convey, in indirect ways done. Otherwise becomes 1 more thing 2 think on. If U could tell me, “HEY Here’s proof (not evidence) u need 2 stop ur situation by taking it 2 police” that’d be incredible. Been asking 4 a decade plus of time.-

- but behind that direct proof, vs evidence and of course signs, I feel no satisfaction saying “ha ha u never fooled me.” I’ve gotten old and I’m frankly tired from Constant exposure 2 nonsense inside & outside. If I specify, something gets verification & pummels me harder.-

-It can’t get worse than link summing situation. On origins &how it’s snowballed, Ive nothing 2 gain from more. Believe what U will. when all the literal cover ups happen. Ur gonna want to throw stones at the source of the youthful voices that I think others can also hear under different subjects. Think: if they can detect a wave, they can send a wave. In/out. Send/Receive. What can a wave do? A booming speaker with just sound waves, can move an object...there's a whole spectrum of waves...You know I can be insightful, how gullible do you think I am, regardless of however depicted? Not 2 get urbane, but from “Hamlet”: “There are more things in heaven&earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in ur philosophy.”

ur thinking smoke & mirrors to my situation...Its hacking! the phones, the laptops, the Alexa's, the streaming devices, the webcams, the mics, cameras here/there, maybe other electronics at home and in car...we're talking mind reading, so satellite infrared of body/eye movements-

- but somewhere in the timeline of this situation, I came across brain mapping, running voices and aliens thoughts to my mind by me, detecting a reaction from emotions detected thru fMRIs, copying the neurons processing sight...who knows...

- and being the age of lawlessness and encouraging lack of accountability, to further encourage involvement to harass by strangers, probably use some form of anonymous social networking, to make every1 feel "involved" in history and "The Project."

Believe what you will, like whatever "they" tell you...that "clearly" (note: sarcasm) always works... From “Hamlet:" “There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in ur philosophy.”

other stuff from today and previous days below:

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other things that were tweeted that were never uploaded to Tumblr:

people can be overactive after working, or after going through the white light surrounding social media. try hanging upside down (assisted) with the help of the feetup bench. You'd be surprised how often our feelings and activities and health decrease circulation to the head:

I agree with AppleTV ( #AppleTV ) 's advertising about having great shows with notable stars. But right now, it seems like they've hit a lull after #LessonsInChemistry and #Hijack. Can't wait till they continue with #Foundation and #Silo.

Its sad Henry Cavill ( #HenryCavill) won't return to being #Superman or #TheWitcher ( #Witcher ) ..he really made the characters who they are...

Now time is going 2 be spent impeaching Secretary of Homeland Security from meeting till 1AM in morning. In mySituation, focus isOn diminishing/addressing executive functioning. Executive functioning is about self control/prioritizing. Nows time 2"start" reading thru Border Bill.

America is characterized by big cars, large meals...but is a Friday pizza/five guys double cheese burger really that bad? I eat a fun size/share size Hasbro Gummy Bear/Sour Path kids and I feel satisfied. A ShopRite pack of Gushers, a measly five in package. -

- rather then helping people communicate telepathically to their smartphones, its great tech like #Neuralink also helps paralyzed people have working spinal cords. -

-But rather than people adjusting to new cuisines and their large calorie count (like a burger/cinnamon roll), by not eating it, people should be enhanced to handle large calorie counts. A cinnamon roll should be just that, a small sweet circle, not a worm hole of 2000 calories.

#SupermanLegacy ( Superman Legacy ) releases 2025-I watch myself gettingOlder, highlighted by longAwaited releases&interval b/w movies in DC/Marvel universe. I startedCollege when #IronMan ( Iron Man ) came out. Im approaching 40 when Avengers Infinity War & End Game ended saga.

Dragon Ball ( #DragonBall ) GT was not Cannon upping its game ... but Super Saiyyan 4 Goku meets Super Saiyan Blue #Goku , in a Japanese movie with English subtitles, bringing them together, on #Youtube .

On Taylor Swift and Kelce , #TravisKelce ( Travis Kelce ) is the luckiest guy, to have not just Taylor Swift ( #TaylorSwift ), but any girl with a concert the day b4 his game, essentially time travel to arrive hours b4 game, because of time difference leaving Japan 1 day ahead.

This gap after the Aquaman movie sequel is upsetting ... where if I want to see #Supergirl with Milly Alcock , I have to wait years, or if I want to see Wonder Woman ( #WonderWoman ) , I have to settle on the #SuicideSquadGame ( Suicide Squad Game ) ...

https://x.com/RennyJi/status/1752437823376863319?s=20

Love how they did throwback respect to #Sokka ( Sokka ) with the reuse of his voice and subtle #AvatarTheLastAirBender references in #DragonPrince on #Netflix.

#LetEmKnow#IDoNotConsent nor did I ever, nor will I ever, to NON-chip-in-brain based machine interpretation of thoughts like #Neuralink ( Neuralink ). What happens when it’s without nanotech implanted in YOUR BRAIN?!

#IDontWantToOverreactBut if grocery store donuts cost $8.99 , why not go to a local bakery and get premium donuts? And if frozen pizzas cost $10, why not go for the real thing? If grocery store ice cream costs $5 plus tax, why not go to Carvel or Coldstone?!

I’ve wondered, did Captain America ( #CaptainAmerica ) in his younger self, see his older self, when he was saying Goodbye to Peggie, in whichever movie sequel it was: Civil War or Winter Soldier…

I want you to want me to be free from my situation & dosomething about it like giving me proof I need 2 stop it-this is so NOT Back To The Future #NotBackToTheFuture . Doc Brown & Marty would think this mindReading/control timeline, acceptedByPeople, is from a parallelUniverse.

I got to hand it to those who embark on the 1000+ piece Lego Projects depicting Deloreans , Corvettes, or Thor's hammer...its the ultimate puzzle adventure...requires patience, focus, determination...

Our emotions and feelings are not things to be suppressed with drugs (legal/illegal) or even alcohol (if suppression is ur purpose), but signs, that whatever contributing to them, needs to be addressed. Let it fuel you, rather than bring you down.

Regardless of questionable staffers on the Palestine front, probably shouldn't use that as an excuse to cut off funding for aid in a decimated area lacking likely food, shelter, electricity ...

On Thursday of this week, a man was executed with nitrogen gas, used to put him thru a 30 min ordeal of gagging/suffocating. As today, Saturday, is Holocaust Remembrance Day, probably shouldn't aim for something similar to gas chambers.

When U see something like shape of earth, its orbit, the sounds from the earth and its frequencies, or even how the moon is at the right distance to eclipse the sun and earth of different sizes, the Big Bang Theory-a chaotic event producing exactness-becomes mind boggling.

#Jawan was great. Hope #Fighter in New York theaters, or at least #AmazonPrimeVideo or #Netflix - can’t remember last time I saw great dancer #Hrithik (#HrithikRoshan - Hrithik Roshan) in a movie-seems like #Bollywood , Brit&EastAsian more on streaming services than #Hollywood…

Law becomes about words and meaning of words and how the meaning of words can be interpreted for situations and set a precedent for future cases. Is insurrection the same as a riot? Regarding border crisis, is it an invasion or just closing the door?-

- on closing the border, there’s a saying: “ Before you remove the splinter in your neighbors eye, remove the log from your own eye” so that u can see clearly.-

- Connecting it w/border crisis, if you can’t satisfy the people already in America, if there isn’t enough resources 4 them, you can’t bring in the responsibilities of other countries. They ARE the responsibilities of their native countries.-

- America and the United Nations needs to send assistance thru army or diplomats to make things better for asylum seekers in their native countries.

#IsItOverNow w/respect to my tweeting days for the immediate future, most likely. This would never end w/all thought provoking trends, things wrong in the world, and "my situation."

Copy and paste below link (do not know why its not clickable)

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MySolution 4 Social Media Tech Execs @Meta( #Meta#Zuckerberg )

@Facebook ( #Facebook ), @X ( #X#Twitter ), @tiktok_us ( #TikTok) etc. on (1/31/24) Senate Hearing. KeepStock of flaggable material+set threshold 4 totalAllowedAmount. SeeBlog 4elaboration:

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U gotta wonder if situation lasted long b/c of disdain/hesitancy 2 lawsuit,by supposed representatives ofMe. Can it get more public/uglier than this?Maybe cuz spotlight, now, isOnMe. Probably deluding those inMyLife w/clearing this/that. -night/day, orchestrators still criminals

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Home conversation in kitchen/eating area of the house, should be noted b/w times of 2:40ish and 2:51ish on 2/4/24- 2nd or 3rd time mentioning in tumblr/twitter…had my phone on me, my ears & brain on me, 4 the hackers-a call for need of mental competency tests of those in charge.

There is a degradation of culture in western world: I’m not 1 to call himself religious, but I believe & have insight…I have respect for these practices. A Commandment: Don’t Use My Name in Vain- outta respect, should avoid rhetoric like [Jesus] F* [Christ] or [Holy] f* [God]-

-Y blame God 4 ur’s or other’s choices? God didn’t cause my decade long situation. People did,& their enablers. Nature of existence defined in literal/figurative Adam/Eve story. 4 a bad choice, toil on earth was the punishment.We have power to choose & responsibility of choices.-

- Fate is the framework of our existence. It’s what we are born into. The framework says where the floor and ceiling are. Destiny is how high or low we “choose” to go within the framework of fate.- some people work hard to go above the ceiling.

Rick & Morty ( #RickAndMorty or

@RickandMorty ) is 1 of the greatest series I’ve seen. I binged all 7 seasons on #Max . It’s sad when a series U bonded with, ends, & U have 2 wait 365 days for 10 or so episodes. Hope the creators can speed things up. Amazing job on the story.

A non or repetitive news day is probably a good day because nothing necessarily bad transpired. But, seems like they’re showing same things…I guess that’s the difference between news channels and the 10 PM news on the lower channel numbers. 10 PM churns out new stuff daily.

“Some” of the supposed predictive analytics (a nonsense word as part of a cover up for something more serious) stems from having written and spoken things over and over, across a decade. Now it’s like a mapping table in Excel. “he sees/hears this” = “will likely react with this”

- there’s excel type mapping from the youth sounding voices, and legit mind reading/control that probably dates back to the Cold War or WWII

Nonsensical conversation from 6:40 ish till 7 pm ish in bedroom w/mother…says decade old material w/o reason, gets me riled up thru bringing up multiple non connected topics (incoherent) & keeps pressing, while having me go in circles repetitively. Usual style. Motive, who nos?-

- if I could do it again, even w/my situation, would never live w/relatives beckoning “please, the house is ‘just 4 u.’” Results in poor life planning from supposed 1 less concern. After an age, while in a paralyzing situation closing doors, over analysis on ur day is straining.-

- Dealing w/people from another culture: u say same line repeatedly as a response, they focus on same question w/o hearing. “They have eyes & won’t see…ears & won’t hear…” like waiting 2 hear what’s in head or create so much nonsense, u feel victimized.-

Dealing w/people from another culture: dealing w/their standards of what’s appropriate 2 tell family/doctors/law enforcement…have 2 ask what planet U hail from? So it’s not okay 2 tell a doctor u feel sick? It’s not okay 2 bad mouth the family when talking about familial things?

From Danny Phantom ( #DannyPhantom ), anyone remember the ghost wale from the version of him that mixed with Vlads ghost in time travel episode with Clockwork? Or the box ghost? Or Ember you will remember?

I think Helen of Troy was the story w/ Trojan horse…with USAs welcoming of asylum seekers, it’s hard not 2 wonder if rival countries are planting people. How can there be 5000 asylum seekers daily every day for years. Britain seemed 2 share in notion by leaving European Union.

America has always been a place for opportunity seekers/better lives seekers…but maybe the United Nations should and the army should better life in native places trying 2 prune out nay sayers thru education & opportunity.

Providing better schooling and on the flip side: something like video games and cinnamon rolls and a pizza might have anti American places a different perception and different life goals rather than joining some militia

I don’t know what it is with genetics, but younger children seem more innocent looking than their burlier serious looking older siblings…look at Aquaman & his brother or The Brothers Sun- it’s like people innately know this deep in their psyche, when producing creative content:

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https://x.com/RennyJi/status/1754680021640257691?s=20

The amount of content produced in #anime like Attack on Titan or Demon Slayer is phenomenal. I still feel non English dubbed Japanese versions have better stories-need 2 learn Japanese. I don’t know how they do it vs. American animation-At high speeds, tons of content produced.

So the Chinese have animals associated with birth years too…Chinese buffets used to have menus with their zodiac printed on them. 1957 is the year of the rooster and 1988 is the year of the dragon. Maybe the small arms of the dragon is why I can’t use chopsticks…

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https://x.com/RennyJi/status/1754682359352316084?s=20

Danny Phantom ( #DannyPhantom) was probably the last of Nickelodeons awesome schedule of shows. Maybe iCarly ( #iCarly ) was last or #AvatarTheLastAirbender . What happened to #Nickelodean? B4 splitting to 3 versions, its was kids shows, teen shows, I love Lucy like shows…

Rather than averaging 5000 asylum seekers/illegals weekly, Y not just close border? Now they get free credit cards in New York. Ever try calling Unemployment in NY as a citizen?4 benefits, there isn’t even a hold if Too many callers-line gets disconnected on daily basis/all day.

Pronouns can get confusing…in high school Spanish, we learned plural form of a group of men & women, is characterized by “EllOs” - the male form of “They” I guess the men & women didn’t care sharing a pronoun. now, in English, “They” (plural) can refer to 1 person- confusing.

Youtube links:

https://x.com/RennyJi/status/1754948345775173921?s=20

https://x.com/RennyJi/status/1754948122613047463?s=20

Love the Morty theme, especially the orchestral version, from Rick and Morty. The song is actually “For the Damaged Coda” by, I believe, artist: Blonde Redhead:

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https://x.com/RennyJi/status/1754950858633056732?s=20

If I ever become wealthy, I’m going to have different East Asian chefs to prepare meals, & some1 Japanese 2 make desserts. There’s something magical about sticky rice/sautéed meat. The sauces seem simple, but are exquisite. And vegetables seem easier to consume, Chinese style.

With Apple Vision Pro ( a virtual reality headset ) getting released, imagine Ubers and Instacart’s & grubhub/door dashers having cars, driven by people wearing VR goggles in their home & using something like Logitech video game driving package (G923). - twist 2 driverless cars

On Taylor Swift and Kelce , #TravisKelce ( Travis Kelce ) is the luckiest guy, to have not just Taylor Swift ( #TaylorSwift  ), but any girl with a concert the day b4 his game, essentially time travel to arrive hours b4 game, because of time difference leaving Japan 1 day ahead.

Interpret law vs. waiting 4 literalWording #JustAnnounced President (s) ( #Presidents )/regular people, need 2see laws asGuidelines 2extrapolate them in2 eachModernDay. #NoOneIsAboveTheLaw #tuesdayvibe #SCOTUSExtended thought onItIn Tumblr post below:

There is a degradation of culture in western world: I’m not 1 to call himself religious, but I believe & have insight…I have respect for these practices. A Commandment: Don’t Use My Name in Vain- outta respect, should avoid rhetoric like [Jesus] F* [Christ] or [Holy] f* [God]-

-Y blame God 4 ur’s or other’s choices? God didn’t cause my decade long situation. People did,& their enablers. Nature of existence defined in literal/figurative Adam/Eve story. 4 a bad choice, toil on earth was the punishment.We have power to choose & responsibility of choices.-

- Fate is the framework of our existence. It’s what we are born into. The framework says where the floor and ceiling are. Destiny is how high or low we “choose” to go within the framework of fate.- some people work hard to go above the ceiling.

Im an MBA in Management Information Systems, w/Bachelor of Science in Computer Science. Everyday, I apply for 30 or more jobs, as U can see from the “Thank U” emails in the 3 screenshots below. From 1 pm -10 pm, just kept applying. It’s that hard, or something has it in 4 me.

For screenshots:

https://x.com/RennyJi/status/1758699919324381466?s=20

- The number 2 right of sender indicates I applied 4 that many different roles within the same company. Gonna attach a screenshot, referenced in previous tweet once more, as Twitter is only showing 2 screenshots in previous tweet, although 3 were attached. Here’s the 3rd one.

For screenshot

https://x.com/RennyJi/status/1758700825122148413?s=20

- not sure what more I can do 4 these jobs. Biden says there’s jobs. I have two degrees, work experience, & I’m applying for jobs that require no experience. I had my resume proofread by a paid reviewer. After a while, is it paranoid 2 assume something is settings odds against u?

-&if U get stuck w/o response from prospective employers, Unemployment is next step in New York. When U call them, part of application process is online & other half is thru phone. U call,&no 1 picks up, or line gets disconnected cuz too many callers. No call back. Happens daily.

- & that’s when America is giving luxury housing, free health care, credit cards, & sex change operations to 5000 or more asylum seekers coming 2 American everyday. How can there be 5000 asylum seekers daily& how is it fair when citizens have hard time getting a job or freebies?

It’s sad that Chadwick Boseman , the original Black Panther ( #BlackPanther ) star, passed away. From a straight perspective, he was a pretty good looking dude to have to face that misfortune, especially in the prime of his career…

The 90s Silver Surfer ( #SilverSurfer ) cartoon series, showed the extent of his dealings with Galactus ( #Galactus ) and other story twists. Regrettably, the series ended prematurely without multiple seasons.

Life in America? Shooting in Times Square last Saturday, shooting at Joel Oesteens Church:Sunday, there was a NYC subway shooting on Monday, a mass shooting at celebration of the victory of the Kansas City Chiefs: Wednesday, & on Thursday: teenager involved in subway shooting.

- up until yesterday, starting last Saturday, w/exception of Tuesday of this week, theres been a shooting every day of week. Sure Constitution says we have right 2 arms, & Americans are touchy about their guns, but at this point, the privilege, from being abused, should B banned.

Looking forward to the #MadameWeb ( Madame Web ) movie. Hope they concentrate a movie on Spiderwoman. From 80s or 90s cartoon series on Disney Plus, the character is attractive on multiple levels. She can zap on her costume and fly! SpiderMan or Peter Parker can’t.

B4 I got LASIK, & wore glasses/contacts, stores like LensCrafters emphasized collection of glass frames w/brands like Dolce & Gabbana & Versace. & LASIK? Great quick process but ur warned about that risk of things totally going south during procedures & u going blind. -

- ud be surprised how many people have poor vision, drive with that poor vision, and can’t afford basic means to correct their vision…and that’s how it is in America…who knows how bad it is elsewhere…

Bollywood has a lot of stars from Punjab , Gujurat , and in the Sindhi people … all great people-rich in culture, style, foods, clothes, dances, songs, and love stories…

Can’t wait till the remake of the Avatar The Last Airbender ( #AvatarTheLastAirbender ) #AvatarNetflix movie gets released on Netflix ( #Netflix ) … one of the last hit shows like iCarly ( #iCarly ) on an aging Nickelodeon ( #Nickelodeon ) …

Any1 else play NBA Jam 99? On Nintendo 64? I don’t get sports video games. w/games like NBA Jam, cheat codes like L button 3x &right directional button, & that sequence 2 more times, followed by the Z button, it gives U the fireball that never misses hoop. No point 2 playing.

I always wonder if the late night shows with all the jimmys ( like some cosmic late night joke ) is indeed live or a live stream. They show scenes from the show in the commercials during the late night news preceding the late night talk shows…

ps5 Football isJustPainful w/all guys tackling U when uGetBall. touchdown takes 4ever.-its same @ SuperBowl. depending on how U C it as goodOrBad, if theres tie inGame, gameDrags in2 overtime, w/more minimal motion moves. 6point touchdowns is 1 of possible radicalChanges inGame.

I miss 90s shows like Hanging with Mr Cooper or Sister Sister … gave feel good feelings

Happy to hear there’s a new Fantastic Four movie coming out. This is the second remake. They never go wrong with the stars playing the Invisible Woman.

Spider-Man or Spider-Woman-Spider-Woman, like Morbius , canFly. LoveHow in #Morbius movie, theyAdded multiverse w/SpiderMan villainFrom Thanos/Avengers-verse, like adding aMarvel 2 X-men verse, or recent friendlier Venom ( #Venom ) splitting in2 bad 1 in Tom Holland’s SpiderMan.

Anyone else remember Captain Planet ( #CaptainPlanet )? Cuz he’s a hero. Gonna take pollution down to zero…gonna help him…earth, fire, wind, water, heart-those were the days on cartoon network & boomerang. Along w/Johnny Quest, The Flintstones, The Jetsons, & even The Smurfs…

Marvel comes out w/more realLifeActor movies while DC does more animation. On DCside, b/c of amountOfTime b/w sequels, hating how last 2movies came in part 1/part II style stories. I.e. Justice League RWBY heroes & huntsmen, & also crisis on infinite earths, on Google Play Store.

Starship Troopers has 1ofMy favoriteFemaleIcons: Denise Richards-&got 2see @JLo ( Jennifer Lopez ) on @jimmyfallon . Along w/her, theres @Shakira , whos also out w/aNewAlbum. newsSide, fan of@kayleighmcenany & @ErinBurnett . from bollywood, love Ameesha Patel. ( @ameesha_patel )

There is a time 2 look up, look straight ahead, & inward. U look inward, when U need 2 think thru a problem. U look straight 2 keep ur eyes open 4 a solution, & u look up when its time 2 leave 2 God 2 handle the results after U do ur best-ur part.

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Translation of Anna Kasterova’s live interview on 5/29/20.

Thanks to my amazing Gino Anon, the entire interview is translated below the cut. Final word count, btw, is 2405 so like, send big thanks their way. Holy shit! 

Anna got sick few days before the interview. Not covid, just a cold, that later turned into otitis. It was very painful, but now she’s feeling way better, though she still has some trouble hearing with her left ear. They talk a bit about the weather in Miami (it’s been raining there for a few days, but it’s still pretty hot). Igor asks if they’re allowed to swim during the quarantine. Anna says that the 1/ 

beaches were recently open, but there are obviously rules about keeping the safe distance. “Is Zhenya a good swimmer?” “Yeah, he’s great. He’s spending a lot of time with Nikita, teaching him how to swim. More in the pool though, than in the ocean.” “How do you and Zhenya feel about the latest news in NHL?” “I think, the idea is pretty good. Everyone has been waiting on some news about this season. I asked Zhenya if he preferred for the season to be cancelled. He said, he wanted to finish it 2/ 

properly. This season has been great for him, he’s in a great shape. And even though he hasn’t been skating for 2 months, he’s still been training pretty hard, running, roller skating and he didn’t lose his shape.” She thinks everything is turning pretty good so far and it’s great that the teams will have a time for training camps and a chance to go to playoffs.“In your opinion, were the players mentally prepared to continue the season?” “I think, those, who genuinely want to go to playoffs, 3/ 

have been working very hard to be ready, when the time comes. But, for sure, there are some players, who spent more time relaxing, rather than training. A lot of teams are asking their players to come back and start training on the ice and not all of the players follow their instructions.” “What are the rules about practice right now? Are they allowed to train in groups or…?” “There are no details about it yet. It haven’t even been decided yet, what cities will be chosen as Hub cities. So far 4/ 

the coaches are asking players to stay in shape. They have video calls together, where they go through different footage every time. But, as far as I understand, the organization and the coaching staff are ready for the players to come back.” “How do the players feel about the new rules for playoffs this season?” “No negative feelings. They’ve been under a lot of mental pressure, not knowing anything about the season and the playoffs. Everything seems pretty logical and they’re very happy to 5/ 

get back on ice and to have a chance to fight for SC.” “Is there any inside information about what cities will be chosen as Hubs?” “No one knows anything for sure. But I know that they’re very carefully considering epidemiological situation in the cities and will choose the safest options. ” *I SUCK at translating hockey terminology from Russian to English, so I’m sorry if anything is incorrect.* “Do you think it would’ve been fairer to include the numbers of “play-in” (I have no idea what he 6/ 

means by “play-in”) as well as the Robin Rounds into the statistics of regular season? Because it would give the players, like Ovechkin and Panarin, and Malkin to gain more points.” “It’s a very difficult question. But I’m sure NHL and NHLPA have gone over all the possible scenarios and have chosen the best one.” “How has Geno been handling the quarantine?” “He’s been very calm and collected. He’s been doing great mentally, smiling and cracking jokes, and keeping us safe and happy.” “Why did 7/

your family (meaning Geno, Anna and Nikita) decide to do a covid testing in early April?” “I had a pneumonia in November and wanted to find out for myself, if it was covid-induced, if I had any antibodies for the virus. But all the testing came back negative. None of us had it.” “What books did you and Zhenya read during the quarantine?” “Zhenya likes to read fantasy books. He’s been reading “Quantum Warrior: The Future of the Mind” by John Kehoe.” “Does he read in English?” “No, in English 8/

he’s mostly watching TV shows.” “I was very impressed by the story, that after his 1st season in NHL, Zhenya hired Russian language and literature teacher.” “He’s had a lot of free time these past 2 months and he’s hired 2 tutors: English language tutor to work on his grammar and Russian language tutor. (*Sorry, I don’t know if I need to explain this, but Geno obviously knows how to speak Russian. What I think Anna means here, is that the pronunciation of the words in Russian changes depending9/

on where the person is from. Every region has its own accent. I think, what Geno is trying to do, is lose his Magnitogorsk accent and start to speak clearer Russian, like ppl in Moscow of St. Petersburg do.*) He has classes with his tutors Monday to Friday. I’m very happy for him.” One of Geno’s friends in Russia has been robbed recently. Igor is asking Anna, if they ever considered buying a gun, since it’s allowed in US. Anna says no, they feel safe and they live a good neighborhood. She 10/

doesn’t think it necessary or appropriate. They talk a bit about Ovi’s second child being born recently and if Geno and Anna are planning on having a second child any time soon. “Of course, we wouldn’t mind having another child. If it happens, we’ll be very happy. I would like to have a girl, though.” “What’s the best way to describe Zhenya’s and Ovechkin’s relationships today? Are they friends or rivals” “Both. And healthy rivalry is very important in order to reach their personal goals.” 11/

“When Caps and Pens play each other, is it possible for them to go have dinner after.” “No.” “What can you say about the relationships between Zhenya and Sidney Crosby? When we talked with Zhenya last year, he said very nice and kind things about him. Even though Zhenya is in Sid’s shadow a lot of the time.” “I can talk about it for hours. They push each other and make each other stronger. But they also can step in and do more than anyone, when the other is hurt and not playing. Off the ice, 12/

they are very good friends and they support each other. Have I ever thought about what his life would be like, if he was the only star player in a team? I think, he’d be the best player in the whole NHL. He’s very intelligent in terms of building a game, always plans 2-3 steps ahead. He’s very fearless in his game, very talented and vey multilateral player. He’s very unique. They won together THREE STANLEY CUPS! No one's saying Crosby is less talented. He’s an incredible player, he works very13/

hard every day. They are 2 number 1 players in this team. If Zhenya ever asked me if I’d like him to play in New York, f/e, I’d say, no. Pittsburgh is his city, his home. And management and coaching staff are also a very important part of team success. The relationship inside the team is very important. And Pens are the best in that, imo.” “You two watched Super Bowl at Sid’s place. What’s it like there?” “It’s a tradition. Every year Sid invites the team with their wifes/gfs/kids to watch 14/

Super Bowl. His gf Kathy does all the cooking. She’s a very geart person, very hospitable. *omg, this is the first time I hear any1 talking about Sid’s gf 😀, aww* Everyone on the team is very open, very kind, they are great guys. It’s the best thing about Pens. So we’re always happy to accept Sid’s invitation and we always have a great time.” “Do you want Nikita to become a hockey player?” “We’re not gonna push him to it. If it’s something he wants, sure. But I have big plans for his 15/

education. I’d like him to know 2 languages, (English) and Russian, especially grammar, not just being able to speak it freely. I’m studying with him and for an almost 4 yo he already knows quite a lot. And it’s always very hard for a child of a parent, who has achieved so much, to surpass that kind of success. And I don’t want my son to have this kind of pressure on him. I don’t want him to be known solely as “Malkin’s son”. For me it’s very important for him to get a good education and to 16/

choose his path in life.” “Talking about the tv series about Michael Jordan, would you like a bio series to be shot about Zhenya?” “I know he wants to act, in a tv series or in a movie. He talked about it many times. As for a biopic, of course I would like that. He has a huge success story. A man from a simple, working class family. It’s very expensive to play hockey. And he was so talented even in a young age, that his coaches would sometimes bring him a puck, or a stick, or a uniform, for 17/

free. Add to that a story about him finally getting to NHL.” “Zhenya said once in an interview, that you fight sometimes about him not being open enough w/ you, not sharing his problems etc. Has it changed during the quarantine?” “Everything’s been great during quarantine. During the season, he’s under a lot of pressure and always takes it hard if the team loses or if he doesn’t score. Right now he’s very calm and happy, and everything is great.” A question about a conflict around Geno having18/

a USA passport (a lot of people in Russia, his celebrity friends especially, weren’t happy with that, and judged him for that). What does Anna think about it? “He’s a patriot. He loves his country and his city. We were in a hopeless situation, when I needed to get all the documents ready ASAP, and we needed to get married, and him having a US passport would speed that up. You could say, he did it for me. On the other hand, America is his 2nd home. He spends here more time than in Russia. He’s19/

been working here for years. Why is that such a big problem? It’s not like he turned his back on Russia or anything.” Then she talked about Geno’s donation to families in Magnitogorsk, who suffered bc of explosion that happened there in December 2018, and how much he gives to his community in Russia, that ppl don’t know about, bc he prefers not to advertise it. Then Igor keeps asking political questions and Anna is getting more and more irritated by them. Geno publicly supported Putin’s 20/

reelection whenever that was, and interviewer is asking whether him having an American passport is appropriate, considering that he’s a part of Putin team? “Why is it inappropriate? America and Russia are not enemies. Yes, there are some unresolved political issues. They are 2 huge countries, of course they will always feel threatened by each other. But I don’t see any serious political confrontation. Maybe bc we’re in US right now. But Zhenya has a great respect for his president. *bleh, I 21/

don’t like Putin. I know, she has to say nice things about him, bc as long as Geno is a part of Team Russia and wants to have a life in Russia, they can’t be openly against him. But both Geno and Anna don’t strike me as ppl, who will support Putin’s ideals. Sorry for me butting in w/ my opinion*” Question about Geno’s new diet after 18-19 season. “He never drinks alcohol during season. He doesn’t eat potatoes anymore. It’s very hard to cook him a soup w/o any potatoes in it. No sweet things,22/

no gluten. Now before games, he eats gluten-free pasta.” “Is he very superstitious? Do you try to wean him off some of them?” “No, if it makes him feel comfortable, why would I do that?” She declined to name any of them, bc it’s a personal thing for Geno. “Do you put in any work in Zhenya’s image and style?” “I think so, a bit. His sense of style has become better, his taste in literature.” “Zhenya’s favorite music?” “Russian pop-music mostly.” Question about Geno’s gaming habits. Anna 23/

doesn’t try to control him or tell him not to play, bc for him these computer games are a way to relax. She doesn’t mind. It’s his personal time. He doesn’t have his computer in Miami, so he found another way to spend time – studying with his tutors. Question about Olympics. “Yes, he’d like to win a gold medal with Team Russia, when the time comes.” He doesn’t feel jealous about Datsyuk or Kovalchuk, who have an Olympic gold. “Do you think, Zhenya’s last hockey season before retirement will 24/

be in Magnitogorsk?” “Sure, I don’t see why not. He’s very grateful for everything Metallurg gave him and it would seem logical for him to come back there before retiring.” “What is Zhenya’s biggest motivation right now?” “He’s very self-critical (she means Geno’s words about his skills in 18-19 season). He always has a high bar for himself and je always tries to reach it.” Question about Geno reaching 1000 pts. “It was a very big moment for us and a big win for him. He was very inspired 25/

by it and it gave him a lot of self-confidence.” ‘Was Zhenya mad about not making NHL’s 100 players list?” “I was. I was very angry. But he knows his value and what he’s achieved as a player. But it was very strange for me.” “Who do you think Zhenya wil be after his career ends? And how will your life together change? Will you spend more time in Russia or in US?” “It’s a tough question. I imagine a house by the lake, in Russia, with kids and, later, grandkids. With a big fireplace. I think, 26/

after finishing his career, we’d like to travel a bit. But I don’t know. It’s something you should ask him.”

[vaughn-a]

&&. announcing his royal highness, ( vaughn caden ashcroft ), the ( 32 ) year old ( prince ) of ( england ). he is often confused with ( henry golding ). some say that he is ( conforming & impatient ), but he is actually ( humorous & kind )

b4 any1 asks, yes, he’s a viljo revamp. ps there’s a tl;dr at the end bc this got long and i’m sorry, u can skim it through i don’t mind explaining things

so backstory !

his mother worked for as an assistant for the ambassador of canada --- she was on a fast track to higher places and people always told her that she’d become the ambassador herself at some point. she lived for those words because it was her ultimate goal. ever since she had been little all she had wanted to do was live overseas, do important work and be important. she wanted to matter. one part of the dream was accomplished considering she lived in london and not in some backwoods town in canada.

now, her mother was pretty young. mid to late twenties. she wouldn’t be the ambassador for some time, it’s just not how it goes. while she waited to be old and mature enough to be considered for the job, she decided she had to live a little.  hell, if you didn’t take advantage of living in london, you were wasting your time. so she started socializing, partying, going to clubs --- the more she did that, the more friends she acquired, and eventually new contacts were important people, rich people, political people. quite far from her but exactly what she wanted to be. 

and then, against all odds she runs into the crown prince. he’s charming, he’s funny, and he’s the goddamn crown prince! no one can blame her for falling for him and fast. flash forward a couple of months and he tells her that their thing isn’t really a thing and she should move on. oh, what a bummer but hey life doesn’t wait for anyone. what she didn’t expect was the pregnancy. 

so when vaughn was born her mother was in a bit of a pinch because her career was important and truthfully it did not have room for a baby. vaughn basically grew up around the neighbours --- the older women were more than happy to watch after him while his mother went to work to earn those precious pennies. 

yes, vaughn was an inconvenience but no, it didn’t mean that his mother didn’t love him. her free time was dedicated solely to him, and she made sure she would be home to read him a bedtime story. their flat was small but it was enough for two people. 

he grew up quite independent. he could use their microwave oven when he was five and he could cook himself chicken when he was 10. it wasn’t all bad but he was a bit lonely. being the only kid wasn’t much fun. the school he was put in was a canadian one, which just felt odd to him because he considered himself as a brit --- hell, he even talked like one ! 

in the beginning he had trouble making friends: he was a bit shy. but as years passed and he felt more comfortable in his skin, he got more confident and became the jokester. he lover making people laugh, he still does. people who are funny are popular as well and when he started 6th form he just thrived. 

that was when things started to change for his mother as well --- the long awaited promotion finally came. after working at the office for over a decade, she got to run it. the celebrated for a whole month. 

he sometimes asked about his dad but only got vague answers. they made him not want to know. he didn’t want to be the product of a one-night stand: it just made him feel unwanted despite the warmth and comfort her mother provided. 

but then there were news everywhere about the mysterious heirs. two new royals ! wow ! everyone in england were going mental. it was so impossible to believe. one night, vaughn gets to talking about it with his mom and bam ! she has to come clean, it’s now or never. he’s shocked to the core. it can’t be true, he can’t be of royal blood. it makes no sense. his life isn’t a cinderella story. it took him a year before he decided to see what would happen if he got in contact with his dad. it was a bit after a-levels, he had been working at a grocery store with no prospects because he didn’t know what he wanted to do and he most certainly didn’t want to waste her mom’s hard-earned money on a degree he’d throw in the trash. 

so when he kind of became part of the windsor family, things changed drastically. he hadn’t thought about what kind of a celebrity he’d become after his heritage would be made public. the flashing lights and microphones were weird at first, he felt like he was watching someone else’s life because that guy certainly wasn’t him. 

royal duties gave him a sense of purpose though. people, his father’s people, the smart men and women, asked him to do all sorts of favours for the crown. “ can you make an appearance here ? ” “ what if you participated in a charity run ? ” “ you could go and meet the irish royals. ” he played along because if there’s something to know about vaughn, he always wanted to please people. 

all was well, he was just another gear in a well-oiled machine, he had a place. then one day, his father, and i’ll remind you the guy barely spent time with vaughn, comes up to him and asks for a favour. vaughn should go to portugal, spend some time there, befriend the princess, maybe charm her, make sure portugal remains as a strong ally. 

he really didn’t think much about it. he didn’t believe in his abilities to charm people. he was a doofus at core. but he more or less crashed one of barbie’s parties and barbie, being who she is, came talk to him. 

and by god did he do his best to be the most interesting, the nicest and the most handsome guy at the party. he needed her to remember him, if not for england, solely because she just might have been the prettiest girl he had laid eyes on.

their whirlwind romance began there and before he knew it, they were dating. every now and then he’d get a call and someone would ask him to ask barbie if portugal could do this or that, vote against or for whatever benefited england. he didn’t think it mattered that much. he’d ask, sometimes she’d do him a favour, sometimes not. 

“ he didn’t think ” is the title of vaughn’s biography. 

then one time barbie catches him red handed. a fight erupts. she feels betrayed. he doesn’t understand. they fight and fight and fight, and eventually barbie throws him out of the apartment. it’s a quick ending for a fast-paced romance.

so he goes back to england, her mom’s tenure is about to finish and she tells him, she, at least, is moving back to canada. he decides to screw england, screw the crown, screw the monarchy, and goes with his mom. he makes her proud by finally starting university. 

flash forward 5 years, he has his master’s in history, and he decides to help england once again. 

reunion with barbie was rough... what was even rougher was finding out about having a 7-year-old kid. of course, he was upset at barbie, furious even, because if there was something he would have never willingly done was leave a kid without his father. it just hit too close to home. 

the bitches rekindled their romance and now they have the twins and they are playing house. yes, we r gonna pretend he’s been here on/off for 2 years bc this plot required it lol.

TL;DR: canadian ambassador’s son, grew up in england, found out he was a prince, did his best to please the crown, kinda manipulated barbie, fell in love with barbie, got his heart broken by barbie, moved to canada, got his degree, found out he had a son, rekindled his romance with barbie, got her pregnant again lol

[posi-pan]

(#1) Hey I have a q 4 u and any pans who can see this. Is any1 else bitter about bis complaining about biphobia and "being invisible" but theyre the most widely accepted form of multisexuality?? Like if some1 sees some1 who likes more than 1 gender they automatically go "oh theyre bi!!" And pansexuality gets no recognition. That rly irks me. Im rly worried about voicing this to ppl and getting called biphobic 4 this esp from my bi friends! I have friends who are bi and v proud-

(#2) -and they should be!! But I want 2 be recognized too and not b overwhelmed by bis. Pan pride day my Twit feed was entirely taken over by bis being pissed about some article and no one was talking about pan pride day except for a close friend (who only mentioned it as a footnote on a thread) and it really disheartened me. I feel everyday like my pansexuality doesnt deserve as much spotlite as bisexuality and it Hurts.

(#3) Long story short I wanted 2 know if any1 else felt the same way. Sorry if this starts drama or hurts any1s feelings. Ive been holding on 2 it for a long time and just had to get it out :( Thnx 4 lisntening!

oh yeah I definitely understand how you’re feeling. as well as being hesitant to express it.

because while bi is definitely the most visible of the multi identities, it’s still very much one of the “invisible identities” overall, even with a letter in the acronym. so when talking about bi being more visible than pan, you gotta be aware that in general, bi is still not that visible.

so yeah, it’s understandable to be worried that people would take your feelings the wrong way and think you’re biphobic. when in reality, you’re just expressing how it hurts when people who allow their identity to overshadow your own talk about how invisible their identity is.

it’s just a shitty situation. pan doesn’t get the same acknowledgement and support and hype that bi gets. and saying so isn’t about being hateful or divisive. it’s just a fact. bi and pan weeks/prides are a perfect example, one gets SO MUCH attention while the other is forgotten. and like, yeah bi should be fucking celebrated, it just feels like no one thinks pan should be, too.

and you’re welcome! always feel free to express this kind of stuff here if you’re too worried about drama or fighting to express it elsewhere!

[5hfanfiction]

Burning Memories (One Shot)

Summary: Camila and Lauren reunite by fire at the beach as they reflect on their past relationship while active in Fifth Harmony and struggle to wrap their heads around what’s in store for them as they navigate adulthood and contemplate the future.

Burning Memories

Camila Cabello was no more than ten yards from her car and already breaking a sweat from the weight of the logs and kindling she was carrying. She silently cursed the spontaneity of her plans and the resulting poor execution. The notebooks tightly squeezed into the backpack on her shoulders may as well have been bricks when combined with the other supplies that she brought along to the beach. However, it was inching near sunset, so being aware of how dark it would get afterward inspired a slight hustle in her to find the perfect spot for setting up.

There were a few other people within eyesight scattered along the beach but nobody close enough to get a good look at pop music’s stream queen. Ideally wherever she landed would stay secluded and afford her the privacy desired to conquer the evening’s mission without fear of recognition. At just about the point when she felt like her arms might fall off or her legs might give out from under her, Camila found a space that met her criteria and she gently dropped her supplies down to the sand in relief.

In hindsight she realized it may have been more effective to kidnap a girl scout as numerous unsuccessful attempts at starting a fire had come and gone. She opted to take a break and enjoy viewing the sunset when her frustration with the fire-starting reached a peak. It was difficult for Camila to remember the last time she let herself get lost in the beauty of her landscape, and in a way it helped relax her mind away from thoughts about the reason she came out there in the first place.

As the last visible piece of the sun dwindled away from view, Camila returned her attention toward the unlit logs and the unzipped backpack lazily tossed a few feet away. It was barely visible at that point, so she broke the “no cell phone” policy she intended to enforce in order to use her flashlight app. Unfortunately, breaking this rule meant she saw she had received a text from her second least favorite person in that moment, and her level of restraint to prevent her from reading it was minimal to none once she knew it was there.

“Thx, Camz! After the date’s set I can send you an invite. Is your parents’ address ok? It’d be good to c u. Matthew is welcome as your +1, ofc. :)”

Camila took a deep breath as she flipped her phone over so the screen was facing away from her again, against her leg. Lauren wasn’t her friend anymore, far from it, but enough time had lapsed that they could be civil enough to acknowledge each other when congratulations were in order. Ty had apparently proposed to Lauren a while ago, but the media somehow didn’t catch on before the couple chose to announce it themselves on Instagram a few hours before Camila’s escape to the beach.

It had been barely tens minutes after Camila read the announcement and found the courage to text Lauren her well wishes about the news that her boyfriend, Matthew, requested to FaceTime from overseas. He told her he wanted to take a break because of their disagreement over when to have children. He explained how he needed time to think about whether he could wait as much time as Camila needed to ride the wave of her current career success. Although she recognized that the pressure to start a family was a risk that could come from dating a significantly older man, it didn’t occur to her the topic would be pressed as soon as it was. This “break” seemed more like an ultimatum, so she decided on a whim that if her relationship was going to burn to ashes, then so too would the evidence of all the emotions past loves have made her feel.

Camila flipped her phone back over with every intention of going straight to the flashlight, but she felt a tug in her gut that told her to send a response to Lauren’s text first.

“The address here (Miami) is fine. But if I don’t have a +1 anymore, am I still invited?”

She felt stupid the moment she hit send, as her response was practically begging for questions, yet a part of her truly was curious if being in a relationship made her presence in Lauren’s life less awkward now. Rather than waste time obsessing over receiving a response, Camila tapped on the YouTube app and resorted to searching “how to build a lasting fire.” She had begun taking mental notes from the video she selected when a “ding” indicating a new text message interrupted.

“Here? Are you in Miami RN 2?”

‘Too? Oh no..’ Camila thought to herself as she reread the text to be sure. Lauren spent so much downtime in LA last she checked (not that she was keeping tabs or anything). It didn’t even occur to her they could both be in Miami at the same time.

“Yeah 4 1 wk. U?”

Camila barely had a chance to re-open the video before receiving another text alert.

“I fly back to LA tmrw. Want to grab a drink 2night?”

Camila felt her heart rate increase at the suggestion. Last time they intentionally spent time together she hadn’t been old enough to go out for a drink in the states, not that her celebrity status couldn’t have gotten her around that. What would Lauren think of her now? Sure, she had proven herself in the industry despite the controversy surrounding her exit from a group that had since gone on hiatus, but what would Lauren say to the scene that was laid out before her on the beach? What would she make of Camila aimlessly sitting in the sand beside notebooks filled with her most private thoughts, lyrics, and ideas, one of which was exclusively filled with content related to once loving the woman in question?

“I’m @ the beach.”

It wasn’t a direct invitation for Lauren to join her, but it may as well have been. It certainly wasn’t an outright rejection to meeting up either.

“What part? Is any1 else w/ u? I can meet u there.”

Camila sent a text back with more specific details about her location based on where she had parked, after which Lauren had announced that she would “see her soon & bring some treats.” Camila didn’t waste anymore time preparing the fire, as anxiety about the situation to come gradually crept up on her. The last thing she wanted to admit upon their reunion was how pathetic she was at something as simple as building a campfire, so she was determined to have it going strong before Lauren’s arrival.

It slipped Camila’s mind to conceal the contents of the backpack before it was too late. A noticeable figure was approaching her location quickly, and whether it was Lauren or a stranger out for blood, she wasn’t certain she wouldn’t die either way. To the relief of millions of fans worldwide, it was in fact Lauren who eventually came into full view and not a random sociopath excited to claim their next victim.

“I remember when you used to be afraid of wandering alone in the dark,” Lauren reminisced aloud as she retrieved a bottle of Grey Goose from a bag she had been carrying.

“Who’s to say that isn’t still true? Some emotions overpower fear depending on the circumstances,” Camila countered before gesturing toward the liquor. “Is that standard for celebrating an engagement?”

Lauren took a seat beside Camila in the sand, being sure to keep a safe distance from the fire that was finally burning properly.

“Probably not, but it’s good enough to celebrate being two people who are catching up after going through shit. Besides, Ty and I celebrated the engagement properly right after it happened.”

Lauren took a decent-sized swig directly from the bottle before offering it to Camila. Camila didn’t hesitate to accept, although she stuck to a more manageable sip. She was a lightweight and knew better than to start off with too much, too fast.

“Congrats again, by the way. Marriage is a big step. How’d you know you were ready?”

Camila knew it was a heavy question, but the way they used to be never involved treading lightly.

Lauren took another sip from the bottle and shrugged.

“It’s so rare to find someone who supports you for you, for everything you are, and everything you stand for despite all the noise in the world trying to sell us a false image of what perfect people and perfect love should be. Ty has never tried to change me. He understands nobody ever could.”

Camila pondered Lauren’s response carefully, before settling on a nod followed by a much bigger gulp of the vodka than she intended.

“Matthew wants me to stop taking birth control,” Camila blurted before the more reserved part of her brain could censor the thought from spilling out.

Lauren’s eyes widened noticeably before she tried to play it off by digging a small hole in the sand to store the bottle in temporarily.

“Wow,” is all Lauren managed to reply, taking the time to let it sink in where they both were with their lives now compared to when they had been close.

“Today he asked for us to 'take a break’ because the last time we saw each other we argued about it, and I guess it’s giving him second thoughts about me.”

Camila reached across Lauren to retrieve the liquor bottle and take another gulp, only wincing a little as she underestimated how the amount consumed would burn on the way down.

Lauren had to bite her tongue to the point of almost drawing blood to stop herself from saying something she’d regret. It wasn’t her place to judge someone’s relationship. She hated when it happened to her, and happen it did…almost constantly.

Lauren settled on her first question carefully.

“Are you having second thoughts about him?”

“I’m having second thoughts about everyone I’ve loved and everything I’ve felt,” Camila confessed as she gestured toward the now-scattered collection of notebooks almost forgotten against the sand. “I’m always preaching about love to my fans and how much it has inspired my music and who I claim myself to be. But what if I’m a fraud? Do I have it all wrong? If love is what inspires my music, but being in love is also what’s going to force me to take a break from music, then what am I really doing here?”

A single tear escaped from Camila’s left eye and out of instinct Lauren pulled their bodies together into a hug. Camila could feel herself calming down from the embrace, so she laid her head against Lauren’s shoulder and allowed the contact to continue despite their history and how it should make her wary of sharing physical affection.

“Did you write about me?” Lauren whispered against Camila’s head, although she knew from listening to all of her music that she unmistakeably had.

Camila pulled away from Lauren and bent over to retrieve a bright blue spiral with several doodles and scratches along the cover.

“Almost every day until there was no room left to cram anything else in here,” Camila explained while holding up what they would suspect to be the most condemning item proving there had once been more than friendship between the two of them while they were still band mates.

Lauren looked across the fire, toward the ocean, as she motioned for Camila to put the notebook back down beside them.

“I don’t need to read that to know that everything described in it was real, because I lived it, too. I felt it. All of it. I broke both of our hearts, because I thought it was necessary, and that’s one of the most naive things I’ve ever believed, apart from thinking that signing that goddamned contract after The X Factor without proper representation was a solid idea.”

In the midst of painful memories, Camila still managed to crack a smile at the cheap shot Lauren took at the paperwork that guaranteed the beginning of their careers. It had been a disaster, but it launched them all into a level of spotlight they needed in order to land where they were in present day, despite the hardships.

“I don’t blame you anymore. But you know me…when I close a door, I slam it. So that meant finding a way to forgive and forget even if the wound was still fresh at the time I decided to put it behind me. Now here I am out here preparing to burn all these memories I already put energy into mentally blocking.”

“You didn’t successfully conceal everything, Camz. 'I Have Questions’ wasn’t exactly subtle. I had to block so many accounts after you released that song.”

Camila nodded in understanding as she picked the notebook back up and flipped to the approximate page where she knew some of the original IHQ lyrics could be found.

“The version that got released was tame compared to how it all started.”

Lauren accepted the notebook this time and glanced over the page presented carefully.

She slowly read through one of the rough verses:

“How could you turn your back on me

Leave me helpless when I was already weak

I imagined pictures of our future

As I would lie awake in bed

But they blurred out of focus

as you eagerly erased our past”

“Why didn’t that make the final cut?”

“It alludes to romantic feelings, and the final version was spun so I could play it off like the relationship could have been platonic.”

“Kind of how I spun our relationship to seem platonic?”

“Pretty much exactly like that.”

Lauren continued to read the rest of the page, front and back, silently while Camila got lost in thought.

“I should have asked if you had any memories you wanted to bring and burn,” Camila said, breaking the silence casually.

“You’re not really going to burn this one, are you?”

Lauren looked conflicted at the thought of letting it go, although so far she had only read lyrics to the one song.

“I was going to burn the pages from that one first, actually.”

“Why?”

“You’re engaged. Not only is that door slammed shut, but it should be locked, bolted, and probably guarded by a three-headed dog on the other side,” Camila joked, although her tone didn’t convey that she really felt the humor.

“I was thinking though. If things don’t work out with Matthew, you could safely revisit some of your lyrics about heartbreak, and nobody but you and I would ever be any the wiser that someone else inspired them.”

“It almost sounds like you’d prefer if things didn’t work out with Matthew,” Camila accused with a raised eyebrow.

“That’s not true. The only relationship of yours I’ve ever tried to control was ours, and seeing how poorly I handled that one, I’d never try to interfere with others.”

“To be honest with you, one of the notebooks I brought here does have stuff inspired by him, and I was planning to burn it tonight, too.”

“Well then, the only proper way to handle a break up is with a ton of dessert!” Lauren remarked enthusiastically as she pulled s'mores ingredients out of the bag the Grey Goose had been in earlier.

“If I did get pregnant I could eat as many s'mores as I wanted and nobody would even bat an eyelash,” Camila pondered as she grabbed one of the marshmallow roasting sticks.

Lauren rolled her eyes as she pulled open the box of graham crackers and tore the plastic holding one set of the crackers apart.

“That doesn’t sound like break up talk to me. But leave it to you to consider food as the primary pro of being knocked up.”

“Ugh, I hate when people refer to pregnancy that way. It makes it sound like…scandalous? Or something. We’re adults. The process of growing and birthing a new life is beautiful. We should refer to it in a way that respects women who are becoming mothers.”

“Maybe we should have drank more. You are still way too articulate right now.”

“You used to be able to handle spending time with me sober,” Camila reminded Lauren as she crushed her first marshmallow and chocolate between two graham crackers in delight.

“I also remember that I had many other, effective ways of shutting you up, all of which are off limits now,” Lauren added with a smirk as she completed her own s'more and prepared to take her first bite.

“Watch it, Jauregui. That was suspiciously close to flirting.”

Camila moaned in satisfaction as she finished the last few bites of her s'more, before reaching for another marshmallow.

“Watch it, Cabello. Sounds like that are suspiciously close to teasing.”

Camila took her marshmallow stick away from the fire to jab it toward Lauren’s neck threateningly before returning it to the best part of the fire to get the desired marshmallow texture.

“That could have burned me, you know? And I bet the mark would look pretty similar to a hickey.”

“I guess we’d have to hook up then to not waste the accusations of cheating on false evidence.”

Lauren nearly choked on the piece of chocolate she had begun nibbling on as she waited for her next marshmallow to be melted.

“Camz, you can’t say shit like that. Fuck.”

Lauren unexpectedly picked up the Grey Goose bottle and took two big gulps, clearly seeking to become more intoxicated.

“You’re right. That crossed a line. Ty would definitely take me off the wedding invitation list if he knew I never got over you. If he even knew there was something to get over.”

“He knows. We asked each other about our longest, previous relationship and what we would have done differently to make it last. I started to talk about Lucy at first, but then I realized depending on where you start our time line, we were in love much longer. Just because we hesitated to define the relationship doesn’t mean it shouldn’t have counted.”

“I’m surprised you’re not more freaked out by me still having feelings for you. I’m also curious what your answer was.”

Lauren and Camila laid out beside each other on Camila’s blanket after each having consumed three s'mores, washed down with more vodka. They both felt lighter from the effects of the alcohol, and although it was cooling down quite a bit, they welcomed the breeze as they looked up at the stars.

“Neither of us received closure the way I ended it, Camz. That’s why our feelings aren’t resolved. Just because we’ve moved on and love other people now, too, doesn’t mean that we bumped our heads and forgot what it felt like to be in love with each other.”

“Wow, and Ty knows all this?”

Lauren rolled onto her side facing Camila and kept her head propped up with her elbow.

“Yes. What I told him I would have done differently about our relationship is one of two things. Either I would have come clean about it to everyone and tried to salvage it despite the pressure from management to tone it down, or I would have at the very least attempted to find closure once I knew you were leaving the band instead of shutting you out. Ty knows I’m with you tonight and he isn’t worried about it.”

Camila rolled onto her side opposite Lauren, bringing their bodies much closer to one another.

“He should worry,” Camila admitted as her eyes looked back and forth between Lauren’s eyes and Lauren’s lips.

“Why?”

“You know why,” Camila insisted as she leaned in close enough that Lauren could feel her breath on her cheek.

“Yeah, I know,” Lauren agreed softly as she closed the gap between them and let their lips meet for the first time in more than two years. It started out tentative, but Camila pressed back a little rougher to deepen the kiss and sighed soon after when Lauren pulled back slightly to disconnect their lips and look her in the eyes.

“You and Matthew are on a break for sure, right?”

Camila gave a quick nod in confirmation.

“So there’s no reason to feel guilty for what I’m about to do, right?” Lauren pressed one more time.

Camila reached out her hand to Lauren’s face and stroked her right check with her thumb as she pulled her back in closer. Camila proceeded to address Lauren softly.

“Tonight we’re burning memories. Nothing that happens on this beach will be carried into tomorrow unless we both agree. Don’t worry about whether this begins or ends a chapter for us. Just stay in the moment with me and see where it leads.”

Lauren showed no more hesitation as she closed the gap between them once again and they made a silent pact to let their hearts lead.

AN: I wrote my stress away until 4am and this is the product of that decision. After the longest writer’s block of my life I just needed something to come out. Thank you for reading. [I have also published this on Wattpad]. 

[fmhiphop]

Nicki Minaj Beefs With Latto On Twitter

Nicki Minaj and Latto got into a war of words on Twitter. Late Thursday night, Nicki issued a tweet voicing her displeasure over the Grammys placing her song "Super Freaky Girl" in the Pop category. The decision came after the Bronx native submitted the song for consideration in the Rap category. Nicki Minaj and Latto exchange words Nicki Minaj went on to draw comparisons to Latto's popular track "Big Energy," which is under consideration for Best Rap Grammy. "I have no prob being moved out the Rap category as long as we r ALL being treated fairly," Nicki tweeted. "If SFG has 2B moved out RAP then so does Big Energy! Any1 who says diff is simply a Nicki hater or a troll." I have no prob being moved out the RAP category as long as we r ALL being treated FAIRLY. If SFG has 2B moved out RAP then so does Big Energy! ANY1 who says diff is simply a Nicki hater or a troll. I’d actually LUV 2 c a more street record win- male OR female! IJS rightIsRight 🫡 — Nicki Minaj (@NICKIMINAJ) October 13, 2022 The Queen of Rap's comments come after Latto faced similar criticism from Kodak Black for winning Song of The Year at the 2022 BET Hip Hop Awards. The "Soufside" artist took to social media to respond to Nicki's post. "D*mn I can't win for losing...all these awards/noms I can't even celebrate." While Latto agreed with Nicki's initial sentiments, she privately messaged the Barb to address the issue. "I don't think you need to bring my name/song up to prove a point," the text read. But in true Nicki fashion, she didn't hold back. Nicki would post a screenshot of Latto's message, calling her a "Karen." She also criticized the Atlanta native for claiming to be a fan but not speaking up "for the Black woman she called her biggest inspiration." Throughout the night, the two would engage in a war of tweets and screenshots criticizing each other. Latto even posted screenshots of Instagram messages between them, claiming that Nicki has been throwing shade since March. I literally named u as my dream collab multiple times in multiple interviews… like I told u otp I looked up to u… u still never answered my question about where the random shade started coming from https://t.co/DpKSKepkVQ pic.twitter.com/XNkzDBiDWw — BIG LATTO 🎰 (@Latto) October 14, 2022 Judging by the nature of the exchange, it looks like things will end smoothly between the two female rappers. Written by Olan Bryant Read the full article

[megatraven]

Tagged by: @ellohcee!! thank u! :>

Star Sign: Taurus

Middle name: Nicole

Put your music on shuffle. What are the first four songs? 1 - In the End - Lincoln Park 2 - Just a Kiss - Lady Antebellum 3 - One Small Thing - MLP the movie 4 - Innocent - Taylor Swift

Grab the book closest to you and turn to page 23. What’s line 17? "-the Pacific passed through the pores of the gateway, the-”

Have you ever had a poem or song written about you? Nope ^^

When was the last time you played air guitar? Not for awhile, im not good at air guitaring ;(

Who’s your celebrity crush? Chris Pratt and also Stephanie Beatriz

What’s a sound you hate+a sound you love? I hate the sound of my dogs licking anything, but i love the sound of their little feets tapping across the floor

Do you believe in ghosts? Yes

What about aliens? Definitely

Do you drive? Unfortunately

If so, have you ever crashed? Nope!

What was the last book you read? Oh man i havent read in so long uhhh i think it was Origin by Dan Brown

Do you tend to hold grudges against people who do you wrong? Mmmm depends :’)

In a relationship? Nopers, but maybe someday!

I tag: any1 who wants to do this

[ifurgirlhaslove]

tagged by @brucespringsteen i lav u...

star sign: scorpio

name: Cam

height: 5’1 or 5′2 lol

first 4 songs when i put my spotify playlist on shuffle:

i dont got no spoteefie baby !! computer downloads here we go

radical face - doorways

phemieC - mary

ape school - wail to god

crystal castles - cry babies

have you had a poem or song written about you: unless someones got a musical confession 2 make then no!

last time played guitar: never :( im starting to think i might like 2 learn tho

celebrity crush: mitski...? thats the closest to a celebrity crush tht i can think of. i jast think shes cool

sound i hate and sound i love: ppl eating (unless its my friends? which is weird ik) vs. wind :^)

do you believe in ghosts: hm... yes! my experiences could be passed off as hallucinations i suppose but ive met a lot of ppl who have had pretty big experiences

in aliens?: damn rite babey !!

do you drive?: nope 

last book i read: w..warrior cats #2

do you like the smell of gasoline?: chyeah

worst injury: nothing specific i guess lol i just have chronic undiagnosed medical issues so?

current obsession: n/a. maybe drawing the  bowsette hat on any of @tapejara‘s drawings  

do i hold grudges?: yeoerp ( tfw scorpio am i right ladies -_-)

in a relationship?: nope! idk i have my heart set on someone but i dnt think itll happen anytime soon

im not tagging any1 specific just go ham

[dollnasty]

nah fam u didn't understand shit. I mean Jeffree is a racist! but those muas were ridding jeffree's dick so hard and people where like "wait, you are bashing him for the same things that you did? how in hell are going to publicity shame somone who is as bad as you?" The thing with the girl was a whole different situation.

..............idek how to respond to this bc it's not related to the conversation i was trying 2 open up at all. idc about celebrities, idk them, & neither does any1 else. the media is manipulated by them to manipulate y'all. whatever sells, n ppl caring enough to form whole ass opinions about celebrities..........wild, that's how tabloids strive tho. this wasn't about just jeffree it was about the ignorance of ppl consuming certain media........ if y'all r entertained by arguing about which mua u dunno is a bad person or not by all means have ur fun, i just don't rock w that

[bellossom]

Bold what’s true thingy

I was tagged by @honeyycrepe~

a) I tag uhh any1 that wants to do this (I find them fun)

b) BOLD the statements that are true:

APPEARANCE: · I am 5'7" or taller · I wear glasses · I have at least one tattoo · I have at least one piercing · I have blonde hair · I have brown eyes · I have short hair · My abs are at least somewhat defined · I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY: · I love meeting new people · People tell me that I’m funny · Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me · I enjoy physical challenges · I enjoy mental challenges · I’m playfully rude with people I know well · I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it · There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY: · I can sing well · I can play an instrument · I can do over 30 pushups without stopping · I’m a fast runner · I can draw well · I have a good memory · I’m good at doing math in my head · I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute · I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling · I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: · I enjoy playing sports · I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else · I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else · I have learned a new song in the past week · I work out at least once a week · I have drawn something in the past month · I enjoy writing once in a blue moon · Fandoms are my #1 passion · I do or have done martial arts.

EXPERIENCES: · I have had my first kiss · I have had alcohol · I have scored the winning goal in a sports game · I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting · I have been at an overnight event · I have been in a cab · I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year · I have beaten a game in one day · I have visited another country · I have been to one of my favourite bands’ concerts · I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” · I live close to my school · My parents are still together · I have at least one sibling · I live in the United States · There is snow right now where I live · I have hung out with a friend in the past month · I have a smartphone · I have at least 15 CDs · I share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS: · I’m in a relationship · I have a crush on a celebrity · I have a crush on someone I know · I have been in at least 3 relationships · I have never been in a relationship · I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them · I get crushes easily · I had a crush on someone for over a year · I have been in a relationship for at least a year · I have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM SHIT: · I have break danced · I know a person named Jamie · I have had a teacher with the last name that’s hard to pronounce · I have dyed my hair · I’m listening to one song on repeat right now · I have punched someone in the past week · I know someone who has gone to jail · I have broken a bone · I have eaten a waffle today · I know what I want to do with my life · I speak at least 2 languages · I have made a new friend in the past year

[dirrrtydiamond]

I am pathetic, really!? I use these social platforms as free therapy for me to journal my thoughts and feelings and back check and make sense cause I'm awesome like that. And it just finally hit me how pathetic I have been regarding what I once thought or viewd my relationship as.... or could of been. Its like how many warning signs or pain do you have to go through to realize that this isn't for you!? Or him! I have desperately held on, for what I don't know! I constantly felt insecure and anxious in my relationship. My whole character was questioned by myself I felt worthless insignificant, unattractive, never enough let alone good enough. Just something or someone you beared, tolerated until it served your purpose? Its soo pathetic that I could see that from the get go but chose to be ignorant for what? Fear of being alone? False sense of security? The need to be needed and wanted? Its all silly and sometimes hard to swallow and acknowledge, especially hard to except! But you got to! Nether of needs were getting met . Constant bickering, soo frustrating, miscommunication or lack there of went on for years........ at first its all frustrating, then you learn how to tolerate and bare until one day your like no! I don't want or need to put up with this! Like you got a second look at yourself as the whole package and thought hey, I'm not that bad. I have alot to offer and I give 100% and should not feel bad that I expect that in return. I play fair! I don't know exactly when he stopped caring or trying or lost interest but I know it was alot sooner than I want to admit. I kept hanging on, coming back, blaming myself. I was the problem. I must fix me. Everything he said was true or right, yes its all me. If it works its up to me, I must change ect ect!

I fell for all that! And yes, relationships are comprises and sacrifices but should be equal. If its on 1 out of the 2 to determine the fate of the relationship then honey, its not for you! Get out, move on and heal and explore, celebrate and love YOU instead. I'm still struggling with it just being over! Having put soo much of myself on the line and getting nothing in return except for extra walls, heartache, anxiety and debt..... I'm like come on! There has gotta be some light, some lesson, something??

Although it didn't all go to waste. I gained some inner strength, learnt how to recognize what I MYSELF is willing to accept, not to bare, when to walk away, how to not react to everything and just be still sometimes. Priceless.

You can't change people. You can't force any1 to love you and no one is going to live up to your ideal and vise versa! But you must know your worth! Embrace your worth! Love and celebrate yourself before and after. This is survival and beautiful. Its also hard but soo worth it. When i stopped applying all my thoughts, worries, insecurities, self worth on him and started just acknowledging myself, spending more time with myself, doing more things I liked by myself, enjoying myself and self approving myself I slow became free from the chains I allowed myself to be chained in. I don't have to be bitter to be free. He has flaws, I have flaws, we all do! If you want yo be in a Relationship those flaws should balance each other & not be the easy defense card, where the 1 gets to blame the other for their flaws. Were not playing games people. I don't play....... not anymore now that I'm aware........ with my heart!

My love, my honesty, my energy, my being is precious! I now know that! And I will continue to nurture myself and not let anyone make me feel less or other wise again. Their loss! I thought alot about who he would hook up with next, probably someone younger, thinner, bigger eyes, lips and boots, ofcourse! But knowing him, it would be someone naive, young, wild and free caz they would be inexperienced, untainted and think he was God cause they wouldn't know better. They would think his just sooo smart, fall for his charms and antics until one day that would realize that is all he could offer. He would play on your feelings like guitar strings , woo you, fool you, confuse you and charm you into believing he loved you. From there you will be fucked! A narcissist can't love. They can play the game well, pull the wool over your eyes and discard you like your Nothing in a heart beat. Their priorities are all wrong and believe me YOUR not one of them, so don't fall for that shit either unless he has made proper effort to convince you otherwise. If he spoke of marriage and 6 months produced a ring well then girl you did something right but if that didn't happen yet, it ain't never gonna happen! Realize that sooner than later. They are clever beings. They think before they talk, they are precise, the learn your weaknesses to make their arguments more helpful and valuable for themselves. There is no going up against a narcissist if your not one yourself. You will always loose. And loose badly. And here's the best kicker of it all... they are never effected by the outcome! They might play it up or down for face value but the chore within has no thought or feelings about how their partner feels it will always go straight to them! They play victim dictator and destroyer all to amuse their own little minds and circle of friends. Watch who they call friends. Really look at their friends. Something I wish I did sooner. Are they toxic, messy, stable, successful, influential, motivational or dramatic, chaotic . Their drawn yo this types for he is idealized. Image is every to them and as much as they say fuck what people think. Their whole world is based on what these people think? Haha! With a narcissist you are always a victim. They will make you out the monster, claim victim and carry on their merry way as you recover from alm this. They have already made new plans and happily moving on. Dont blame yourself for this. This is not you. Its that person who is not like you! Wish them well even when you want yo strangle them and cut them off!

Focus on you ENTIRELY!

Domorning and evening affirmations. Fo out, get fit read, explore, try something new. Completely close that chapter and never look back and look forward to meeting and becoming the best version of you!

[the-plant-child]

tagged by: @luminarae AAAAA ILY NANNNOO

♡ 1ST RULE: tag 9 people you want to get to know better:

tagging: @flavortowne @thewillowtree3 @hwphantom24601 @sqooq @rumpelteazer @yikesitslemon @rainyblush  & any1 who wants to do this is welcome to say i tagged u too

♡ 2ND RULE: bold the statements that are true.

APPEARANCE:

I am 5'7 or taller - I wear glasses - I have at least one tattoo - I have at least one piercing - I have blonde hair - I have brown eyes - I have short hair - My abs are at least somewhat defined - I have or had braces

PERSONALITY:

I love meeting new people - People tell me I am funny - Helping others with their problems is a big priority of mine - I enjoy physical challenges - I enjoy mental challenges - I am playfully rude to people I know - I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it - There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY:

I can sing well - I can play an instrument - I can do over 30 pushups without stopping - I am a fast runner - I can draw well  - I have a good memory - I am good at doing math in my head - I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute - I have beaten at least 2 people arm wrestling - I can make at least 3 recipes from scratch - I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy sports - I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else - I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else - I have learned a new song in the past week - I exercise at least once a week - I have gone for runs at least once a week in warmer months - I have drawn something in the past month - I enjoy writing - Fandoms are my #1 priority - I do some form of Martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss - I have had alcohol - I have scored a winning point in a sport - I have watched an entire TV series in one sitting - I have been at an overnight event - I have been in a taxi - I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year - I have beaten a video game in one day - I have visited another country - I have been to one of my favorite bands concerts

MY LIFE:

I have one person that I consider to be my Best Friend™ - I live close to my school/work - My parents are still together - I have at least one sibling - I live in the United States - There is snow where I live right now - I have hung out with a friend in the past month - I have a smart phone - I own at least 15 CDs - I share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS:

I am in a relationship - I have a crush on a celebrity - I have a crush on someone I know - I’ve been in at least 3 relationships - I have never been in a relationship - I have admitted my feelings to a crush - I get crushes easily - I have had a crush for over a year - I have been in a relationship for over a year - I have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM:

I have break-danced - I know a person named Jamie - I have had a teacher that has a name that is hard to pronounce - I have dyed my hair - I’m listening to a song on repeat right now - I have punched someone in the past week - I know someone who has gone to jail - I have broken a bone - I have eaten a waffle today - I know what I want to do in life - I speak at least two languages - I have made a new friend in the past year

[juggalism]

tagged by @agender-shoto

any1 can snatch this if they want but ig @davestrudelsgalaxyshades nd @ms-alucard

APPEARANCE:

i am 5'7 or taller - i wear glasses - i have at least one tattoo - i have at least one piercing - i have blonde hair - i have brown eyes - i have short hair - my abs are at least somewhat defined - i have or had braces

PERSONALITY:

i love meeting new people - people tell me i am funny - helping others with their problems is a big priority of mine - i enjoy physical challenges - i enjoy mental challenges - i am playfully rude to people i know - i started saying something ironically and now i can’t stop saying it - there is something i would change about my personality

ABILITY:

i can sing well - i can play an instrument - i can do over 30 pushups without stopping - i am a fast runner - i can draw well - i have a good memory - i am good at doing math in my head - i can hold my breath underwater for over a minute - i have beaten at least 2 people arm wrestling - i can make at least 3 recipes from scratch - i know how to throw a proper punch (jus bc i know how to doesnt mean i can)

HOBBIES:

i enjoy sports - i’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else - i’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else - i have learned a new song in the past week - i exercise at least once a week - i have gone for runs at least once a week in warmer months - i have drawn something in the past month - i enjoy writing - fandoms are my #1 priority - i do some form of martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

i have had my first kiss - i have had alcohol - i have scored a winning point in a sport - i have watched an entire tv series in one sitting - i have been at an overnight event - i have been in a taxi - i have been in the hospital or er in the past year - i have beaten a video game in one day - i have visited another country - i have been to one of my favorite bands concerts

MY LIFE:

i have one person that i consider to be my best friend™ - i live close to my school/work - my parents are still together - i have at least one sibling - i live in the united states - there is snow where i live right now - i have hung out with a friend in the past month - i have a smart phone - i own at least 15 cds - i share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS:

i am in a relationship - i have a crush on a celebrity - i have a crush on someone i know - i’ve been in at least 3 relationships - i have never been in a relationship - i have admitted my feelings to a crush - i get crushes easily - i have had a crush for over a year - i have been in a relationship for over a year - i have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM:

i have break-danced - i know a person named jamie - i have had a teacher that has a name that is hard to pronounce - i have dyed my hair - i’m listening to a song on repeat right now - i have punched someone in the past week - i know someone who has gone to jail - i have broken a bone - i have eaten a waffle today - i know what i want to do in life - i speak at least two languages - i have made a new friend in the past year

[dragonfiish-archive]

top 10 anime battles

IGOT TAGGED BY @mhizz-veraspberry i hereby Accept Your Challenge

1ST RULE: tag 9 people you want to get to know better:

im 2 shy 2 tag any1 sorry 

2nd RULE: BOLD the statements that are true

APPEARANCE: · I am 5'7" or taller · I wear glasses · I have at least one tattoo · I have at least one piercing · I have blonde hair · I have brown eyes· I have short hair · My abs are at least somewhat defined · I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY: · I love meeting new people · People tell me that I’m funny · Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me· I enjoy physical challenges · I enjoy mental challenges · I’m playfully rude with people I know well · I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it · There is something I would change about my personality.

ABILITY: · I can sing well · I can play an instrument (harmonica and glockenspiel/lyre!!!)· I can do over 30 pushups without stopping · I’m a fast runner · I can draw well (umaasa lang HAHHAHA) · I have a good memory  · I’m good at doing math in my head (a little?) · I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute · I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling · I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch · I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: · I enjoy playing sports · I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else · I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else  · I have learned a new song in the past week · I work out at least once a week · I have drawn something in the past month · I enjoy writing · fandoms are my #1 passion · I do or have done martial arts. (muay thai motherfucker)

EXPERIENCES: · I have had my first kiss · I have had alcohol · I have scored the winning goal in a sports game · I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting · i have been at an overnight event · I have been in a cab · I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year (DINENGUE AKO LOL) · I have beaten a game in one day · I have visited another country · I have been to one of my favourite bands’ concerts

MY LIFE: · I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” · I live close to my school · My parents are still together · I have at least one sibling · I live in the United States · There is snow right now where I live · I have hung out with a friend in the past month · I have a smartphone · I have at least 15 CDs · I share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS: · I’m in a relationship (im a big homo bitch) · I have a crush on a celebrity · I have a crush on someone I know (nakikilig parin ako when i think of him does it count paba kung kami na HAHAHAHA) · I have been in at least 3 relationships · I have never been in a relationship · I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them (putangina torpe ako asa ka pa)· I get crushes easily · I had a crush on someone for over a year (mag oone year na kami·  · I have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM SHIT: · I have breakdanced · I know a person named Jamie · I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce · I have dyed my hair· I’m listening to one song on repeat right now · I have punched someone in the past week · I know someone who has gone to jail · I have broken a bone · I have eaten a waffle today · I know what I want to do with my life · I speak at least 2 languages  · I have made a new friend in the past year

[angelusphilia]

i was tagged by @puffertoy​ !!!! !!!! thank u ily

1ST RULE: tag 9 people you want to get to know better: hmmm.  @jyushinoodles​​ ,  @sontoine,��@raytaku, @1010ko, any1 that wants 2 

2ND RULE: bold the statements that are true.

APPEARANCE: I am 5'7 or taller - I wear glasses - I have at least one tattoo - I have at least one piercing - I have blonde hair - I have brown eyes - I have short hair - My abs are at least somewhat defined - I have or had braces

PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people - People tell me I am funny - Helping others with their problems is a big priority of mine - I enjoy physical challenges - I enjoy mental challenges - I am playfully rude to people I know - I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it - There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY: I can sing well - I can play an instrument - I can do over 30 push ups without stopping - I am a fast runner - I can draw well - I have a good memory - I am good at doing math in my head - I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute - I have beaten at least 2 people arm wrestling - I can make at least 3 recipes from scratch - I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: I enjoy sports - I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else - I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else - I have learned a new song in the past week - I exercise at least once a week - I have gone for runs at least once a week in warmer months - I have drawn something in the past month - I enjoy writing - Fandoms are my #1 priority - I do some form of Martial arts

EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss - I have had alcohol - I have scored a winning point in a sport - I have watched an entire TV series in one sitting - I have been at an overnight event - I have been in a taxi - I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year - I have beaten a video game in one day - I have visited another country - I have been to one of my favorite bands concerts

MY LIFE: I have one person that I consider to be my Best Friend™ - I live close to my school/work - My parents are still together - I have at least one sibling - I live in the United States - There is snow where I live right now - I have hung out with a friend in the past month - I have a smart phone - I own at least 15 CDs - I share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS: I am in a relationship - I have a crush on a celebrity - I have a crush on someone I know - I’ve been in at least 3 relationships - I have never been in a relationship - I have admitted my feelings to a crush - I get crushes easily - I have had a crush for over a year - I have been in a relationship for over a year - I have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM: I have break-danced - I know a person named Jamie - I have had a teacher that has a name that is hard to pronounce - I have dyed my hair - I’m listening to a song on repeat right now - I have punched someone in the past week - I know someone who has gone to jail - I have broken a bone - I have eaten a waffle today - I know what I want to do in life - I speak at least two languages - I have made a new friend in the past year